I just happen to look back on my first posts I had ever written and realize it was a year ago today that I started my blog with
this post titled "Silly Wedding Fantasies."
Funny, what the last year has brought. Trials and
patience testing moments. Lots of happiness and laughing and realizing that there are some
silly wedding traditions I can't wait to participate in. It's been a whirlwind of a year, with job hunts, apartment hunts, and a final year of "singledom."
I'm about to start a new, exciting chapter of my life, and have one of the most memorable, life changing events I'll ever have (except maybe a baby and becoming a Christian).
Life as both Sean and I know is about to change and it's so neat. But not going to lie, it's kind of weird too.
Not traveling every weekend to go see him. Sharing a bed. Sharing a bathroom. Sharing food and space. Just sharing in general.
Learning to live with annoying quirks and habits that we both have. Having my best friend around all the time. Always having someone to lean on, run too, and laugh at stupid stuff with.
I think what I'm looking forward to the most is that when I'm having a bad day, or those days when you feel like the world
hates you...that there's another human being there that will be by your side
no matter what. It's no longer me vs. the world. It's US vs. the world.
I've had a lot of emotions in the last few days. It's finally here, and I can't tell you how crazy that is. Maybe it's because we had such a long engagement and I thought our time would
never come. Maybe it's because I had done all this talking about the last few weeks before the wedding and all the logistics we would have to figure out and now we are
for real figuring it out. Maybe it's because I keep saying, next time I do "such and such" I'll be MRS. RAY.
There's been anxiousness about everything coming together.
Nervousness about living with a
boy. (ewwwwww!) :)
Excitement about spending the rest of my life with Sean and never having to say goodbye again.
Overwhelmedness (?) about finishing up school and winding up the wedding and running out of time for either/or.
Happiness about all the new "firsts" I get to experience with Sean.
Confusedness about merging my Austin life with our married life.
Now it's nothing. Just an overwhelming sense of peace that this is
right. This is where I am suppose to be and who I am suppose to be with. A sense of peace that it's going to work out. All of it- school winding down, living with a boy, and introducing Sean to my weekday Austin life.
So for the people that actually read this- thanks for walking through such a pivotal interesting year of life with me. Here's to 50 more :)