Happy Anniversary BecomingOne!

I just happen to look back on my first posts I had ever written and realize it was a year ago today that I started my blog with this post titled "Silly Wedding Fantasies."

Funny, what the last year has brought. Trials and patience testing moments. Lots of happiness and laughing and realizing that there are some silly wedding traditions I can't wait to participate in.

It's been a whirlwind of a year, with job hunts, apartment hunts, and a final year of "singledom."

I'm about to start a new, exciting chapter of my life, and have one of the most memorable, life changing events I'll ever have (except maybe a baby and becoming a Christian).

Life as both Sean and I know is about to change and it's so neat. But not going to lie, it's kind of weird too.

Not traveling every weekend to go see him. Sharing a bed. Sharing a bathroom. Sharing food and space. Just sharing in general.

Learning to live with annoying quirks and habits that we both have. Having my best friend around all the time. Always having someone to lean on, run too, and laugh at stupid stuff with.

I think what I'm looking forward to the most is that when I'm having a bad day, or those days when you feel like the world hates you...that there's another human being there that will be by your side no matter what. It's no longer me vs. the world. It's US vs. the world.

I've had a lot of emotions in the last few days. It's finally here, and I can't tell you how crazy that is. Maybe it's because we had such a long engagement and I thought our time would never come. Maybe it's because I had done all this talking about the last few weeks before the wedding and all the logistics we would have to figure out and now we are for real figuring it out. Maybe it's because I keep saying, next time I do "such and such" I'll be MRS. RAY.

There's been anxiousness about everything coming together.
Nervousness about living with a boy. (ewwwwww!) :)
Excitement about spending the rest of my life with Sean and never having to say goodbye again.
Overwhelmedness (?) about finishing up school and winding up the wedding and running out of time for either/or.
Happiness about all the new "firsts" I get to experience with Sean.
Confusedness about merging my Austin life with our married life.

Now it's nothing. Just an overwhelming sense of peace that this is right. This is where I am suppose to be and who I am suppose to be with. A sense of peace that it's going to work out. All of it- school winding down, living with a boy, and introducing Sean to my weekday Austin life.

So for the people that actually read this- thanks for walking through such a pivotal interesting year of life with me. Here's to 50 more :)

Bachelorette Pad

I moved into Sean and I's place a little under a month ago.

A party was even thrown in honor of my own place for 30 days.
(Not really- but I did have a great time at my bachelorette party!!)


The first few nights by myself I was terrified.
Now I am doing a little bit better and even check the shower every night before I go to bed just to make sure the boogy man isn't back there to get me am able to sleep through the night peacefully. (Although, please tell me what would I do if I found someone in my apartment? I mean really? It's not like A) I am big enough to defend myself, B) would know how or C) have anyone that would come save me if I did scream.)

At first I thought I wouldn't like living by myself. We all know I love to talk, both my old roommates can attest to that. I was convinced I would be bored to tears. But I really am not. It's nice to come home and throw your stuff on the floor. Or leave your dishes in the sink without feeling guilty. Or dance around in your kitchen singing into your spoon at the top of your lungs

Or curl your hair in the living room simply because you want to watch the Secret Life marathon you Tivoed.

Bad idea. Real bad idea. Especially when you drop your curling iron on your thigh and now you have a beautiful purple bruise that will totally accent your wedding dress and accessories perfectly .
Ok, so honestly no one will see it in 15 days. BUT I will be lounging on the beach in 16 days, and that will match my new bathing suit perfectly.


Lesson Learned: There are some things you shouldn't do even if you do live by yourself.
Such as curl your hair in the living room, or leave your wet clothes in the washer for 4 days. (not intentionally!)

17 days

I think my phone hasn't stopped ringing today. Seriously. I have been on the phone with every person between here and DFW. And my mom 16000 times.

16 days I get married. In 17 days I will be laying on a beach in another country without a cell phone or emails next to a handsome redhead.

It's all coming together so well, and so perfectly. I'm just waiting to hit a brick wall. Because surely it can't be pulled off this beautifully without something going wrong right?

Maybe it can. Wow. We are continuously finding money we are saving, and I'm quickly realizing it's about me and Sean, not about keeping everyone else happy.

It's our day. And I can't please everyone.
Disclaimer: Not intentionally ticking people off either.

School...ahh school. Is kicking butt right now, but 7 days and that one will be over.

The wedding dreams are coming on stronger and stranger, but more vivid every night.
And believe it or not, I'm overwhelmed, but not stressing.
Just getting in there and knocking it out, and well, if doesn't get done then who will ever know?

It's going to be gorgeous and we will be married.

But I might be paying off this month's phone bill for the rest of my life.